First day for change

Hi I'm 45 and in the mids of menopause. I had a hysterectomy at 31 but still have my overies. I have gained 15kg in the last 2 months and now weight 76kg. I am battling with the sleepless night, hot flushes etc due to the menopause. I'm a shocking junk food eater and do not exercise. I am very OCD with cleaning and gardening. I'm also a smoker
I had a meltdown last weekend as I went to put on some pants and could not get them past my thighs.
So something snapped inside and made me realise that...

First day for change